Thanksgiving…

Today I give thanks…
HE knows my heart
HE knows my soul
Though my presence or words may be meaningless to some…
Forgetful
Worthless
HE knows they are all of me
My gold
My everything

Aspetto…

Over and over
And over again
I fell for him

And though he wouldn’t
Though he couldn’t
He wanted to see me fall
To see my heart
A heart that beat for him

And, so I wait
Maybe a lifetime
To fall evermore

C/F

Dignità…

The question should never be…
Why did she love?
She may walk alone
But she walks tall
Accepting truth
In a way, he never would

-C F

Attraversato…

What is my word?
What do I know of myself?
Past the happiness of blessings
Past the fractures in my soul
What makes me go on?
Is it HIM?
He filled my heart
And, it was my heartbeat
That led me to the other side of the world
Where I sat alone
With empty hands
And, I felt my worth
And, I could walk no more in the world I created
It was there, that I fell to my knees
And, I prayed at HIS alter
In a foreign country that feels like home

“Attraversato” is my word
Attraversato l’oceano a trovarmi

Finale…

In the end, the only thing she had to hold, was the realization that he was beautiful in her eyes and heart.

C/F

Me…

Never forget that I crossed an ocean, because I wanted to hold your hand in mine.

Acqua…

You flow, in and out of my life
Like waves that crash with no compassion
My flesh wanting the force of you
My heart forever lost in the depths of you 

You are violent 
Against a loving shore
You are gentle
When you need more

Your eyes are my blue ocean
Take the water from mine

Beautiful Lyrics…

The lyrics of this song by A Great Big World 
with Christina Aguilera are poetry set to music. 
I can listen to this song over and over, 
and imagine the story in my mind...

Say something, I'm giving up on you  
  (I want you)
I'll be the one, if you want me too  
  (put that in your heart)
Anywhere, I would've followed you  
  (I would have)
Say something, I'm giving up on you  
  (please...)

And I am feeling so small  
  (yes, so very small...)
It was over my head  
  (I didn't know)
I know nothing at all  
  (no, I knew nothing at all)

And I will stumble and fall  
  (every day without you)
I'm still learning to love  
  (because this is what love is)
Just starting to crawl  
  (I want to crawl to you)
 
Say something, I'm giving up on you  
  (I want you)
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you  
  (I tried)
Anywhere, I would've followed you  
  (I think you know this to be true)
Say something, I'm giving up on you  
  (please...)

And I will swallow my pride  
  (for you)
You're the one that I love  
  (you saw my eyes)
And I'm saying goodbye  
  (you are with me, in every step I take...) 

Smile…

I wonder if you knew
Why I smiled when I looked at you
It's because my heart was telling me
Everything I ever wanted was in front of me
For what it was worth
In that moment in time
I was yours, and you were mine...

ICAOFY

Rhyme My Reason…

He never saw me
All that I am
And, I believe
I will never see his eyes again
So, No
I won't fear the night
And, I won't fall apart
I will stay strong
Because I know my own heart

Traveler…

I know the colors of you will fade away. But, this I can assure you. I will travel my path, with you in my heart, for the rest of my days. 

C/F

Worth…

I am everything beautiful
I am the spring, to your autumn
I am all the things you don’t want 
I am all the things you can’t see
With your eyes that once danced for me

C/F

Chau…

Today I left a house
A place that felt like home
With a pocket filled with diamonds
Tokens from Rome

I left to forget your eyes that never saw me
Your hands that never touched me
To stop asking for the voice you never gave me
To stop wanting your heart that never held me

The land was foreign
The walls were never meant for me
The dishes, the pillows
The art
All meaningless materials
I gave them away to set me free

So I turned the key
And handed it to a stranger
whispering as I kissed his cheek
Be happy

And with the stroke of a pen
I am a nomad, again

El Guitarrista…

I don’t know why he started playing, but I like to think he did it for us. To fill our home with music, something I had always dreamed of. The fact that he taught himself, was impressive in its own right. But, the fact that he impresses me with the sweetest melodies, well that’s a miracle for me.
I want to believe he plays to show me he loves me, but then again I want to believe many things that are not necessarily true to anyone but me. The beautiful chords he strums reminds me that my heart is still alive, though beaten and battered. The crafted notes remind me of the life we built for each other, and that the years will keep us together forever. I belong to him. He is the one that chose me, and chooses me everyday. The only one who ever did that for me. He is the one that has always stood by my side, and let me be whoever and whatever I needed to be in life. The songs tell our story, and for that I am grateful that he is my partner in this journey.
When he plays, he reminds me why I married him. I had forgotten how beautiful his eyes are, when he is happy. I am glad the songs of that wooden instrument -that melodic tool- made me look at him with fresh eyes. Maybe he doesn’t know it, but his guitar has brought me back home, and it is his music that heals my heart. He gives me something beautiful, everyday.

ICAO…

Auguri…

I will never say those words again
Not even to the night sky
I will tell myself they are no longer true
Until I believe it too

I will live to forget those words
Though their weight is all my gold
Until I no longer remember your name
Until I can’t remember why
I will forget that you are the reason for my every step forward
So long as there is air in my lungs… I will live every day
Until I no longer remember you

This is my wish for you

ICAO…🕊

Roma…

When I think of Rome, I think of:

  • The taste of the water at public fountains
  • The view from the top of Castel Sant’Angelo on a clear day
  • Walking over the Tiber River, every day, several times a day
  • Looking past the graffiti and grime to see the intricate details of stonework throughout the city, and imagining what it must have been like in its heyday
  • Street covers that read SPQR
  • Rays of morning sunlight piercing through the Colosseum’s portals
  • Visiting with Bernini’s sculptures at the Galleria Borghese – in the place where the works were commissioned and intended to be displayed
  • The sound of rain falling on tile roof tops, and cobble stone streets
  • Watching the grim faces of the general public melt into a smile when you talk with them
  • Walking and never feeling tired because around every corner, there is something amazing to see and appreciate
  • The Map Gallery at the Vatican Museums
  • The wonderful smell of that store that sells linens on Via Tomacelli
  • Standing on the hilltop, overlooking the Piazza del Popolo, and watching life take place
  • The way music sounds in the Teatro dell’Opera di Roma
  • Listening to Italians speak English (because my Italian is so bad) with the most heartwarming accent
  • How terrible TV selection is, forcing you to it turn off, and participate in life, which is happening all around you
  • When Juventus comes to town and plays against Roma or Lazio at the Stadio Olimpico
  • How much I stare at the calendar, thinking about the next trip back to Rome