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  • Gioia…

    That moment when you accomplish something you did not even know you wanted…

    Thank you — universe — for giving me a gift that filled the void.


  • Nella Mia Vita…

    All the things I have done
    Knowing who I am as a human
         The blessings
              The opportunities
                   The lessons learned
    Centered by my core
    Colored by my own ambitions
    Crafted, not by fate, but by decision

    ...I don't regret a thing, except for

    Chances not taken
    Opportunities that passed me by 
    Love lost
    Letting my eyes overrule my heart when it mattered most

    But, in important moments like this
    Allowing for reflections on my life
    I can shout this to the world...

         I have spoken with care
              I have loved with honesty
                  And, I have lived well

  • Le Parole Contano…

    Will you ever say you're sorry for hurting her
    The one who simply cared without knowing better
    To the one who waited without ever hearing a compliment, or a kindness from you
    The one who let you steal the air from her lungs, every time you looked at her
    The one who never asked for anything more than
    Time, a gentle smile, a laugh, a song...
    The one who only wanted to know the feel of your hand in hers
    Will you ever heal a broken heart that does not beat in your chest...
          ...but sincerely beat for you?

    C/F

  • Se Scompaio…

    Should I disappear?
    Far from your reach, your stare
    Far from the truth only we once knew
    Far from the lie we once were
    Far from the hope that you'll come back

    Will my heart heal, if I disappear?
    Will the thought of you fade, if I would just disappear?

    C/F

  • 언제나 (Sempre…)

    Back in 2011, I wrote a response to the lyrics of a song by Pink because the lyrics meant a lot to me. I recently heard a song — WHERE AM I —  by #CHAEUNWOO  #차은우 that spoke to me in a profound way. The lyrics tell the story of someone trying to navigate the loss of someone special, someone loved unconditionally, without trying.  This is my response...

    WHERE AM I - by Cha Eun Woo

    I read the notes I used to
    Write before I go to bed  …(there were so many, never sent)
    In the hourglass, I drew in a corner  …(time stands still when I think of you)
    Only the sunken sand remains  …(now, time measured in years, is this eternity?)

    In the midst of a sea of unknown depth  …(I crossed for you)
    I'm out of breath, I’m choking  …(your gift to me, for holding you in my heart)

    Where am I? All I see is darkness  …(lost in you, lost without you)
    My empty heart can't seem to fill up   …(what do I do?)
    So where am I? drowning in the waves  …(I will drown so many more times for you) 
    I want to sink endlessly  …(I can’t fight, I can’t fight)
    Even if it's only for a moment  …(but those moments feel like a lifetime)

    Through the half-open window  …(I search for the air you put in my lungs)
    I see your room lit up by chance  …(but you are not there)
    Familiar traces  …(but there's no comfort)
    I hope all this is a dream  …(but, you took my hope with you)
    I sent a text asking if you’re doing okay  …(but it never finds you)

    Will you be holding your broken hеart  …(it’s mine I want you to hold)
    And wandering through the dark streets?  …(without me)

    Wherе am I? It's all darkness  …(I stand still, lost in the thought of you)
    The emptiness fills my entire body  …(I can’t breathe)
    So where am I, I see no one else  …(lost with you?)
    Inside the darkness of my foolish, crouching self  …(how can I stand up again?)

    The sky was clear as glass on my way to you  …(was that you, bringing me home safely?)
    Though I hoped the sun wouldn't rise  …(how could I feel warmth without you?)
    The time we spent together, it all feels like a lie  …(but it wasn’t, for me)
    Like a sorrowfully beautiful dream that makes you cry (Like a dream)  …(you hated to see me cry, for you)

    Where am I? Where am I?  …(I stand still, with all my love for you)
    I keep calling you, but I can't see you  …(you are gone forever)
    So, where am I? Don't drift away  …(lost, but always with you)
    I wish I could hold you for once  …(your hand in mine)
    I'll see you again  …(go, but know you are always with me)

    -CF
    Thank you, 이동민 for sharing your beautiful song. I am forever grateful.
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  • Neverland…

    I lay in the grass
    Wind pushing the reeds around me
    Soft stalks waving
    The sun steals so much from me

    In this place, light and dark surround me
    I rise to see a well
    So far away
    Yet, I rise
    Yet, I walk
    Until I fall at the base
    I drink for life
    I drink for love
    I drink to stay present in this world
    Drops stay on my lips
    I imagine what it would be
    To have you there
    Would you kiss away the drops?
    I look back to where I came from
    Always looking for you… in this Neverland


  • Quando l’orologio si ferma…

    You can remember
    The good things
    Or only the bad things
    ... I choose to remember
    All that you were over your lifetime

    You will always be in my memory

    Rest In Peace

  • Promemoria…

    Today he gave me the gift of appreciation, on a level that brought me to tears. He took away so many of the things that weigh heavy on me with a simple gesture. He is the "Yin" to my "Yang." He is the one who loves me unconditionally, and lives to smile and laugh with me. He never ceases to surprise me, and center me.

  • Sì, Ho Amato…

    Pablo Neruda's Sonnet #17 speaks to a part of me, but these words... it is these words that exemplify his ability to communicate that which lives within.
    "...Te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras, 
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma...

...Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde, 
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo: 
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera..."

Pablo Neruda, “Sonnet: XVII”

  • Perso in Te…

    I didn’t hide from you…
Even when I was fading to darkness

Though you never chose me
I kept choosing you
Even when you stopped smiling
Even when kindness turned to something less
When the you that I loved
Became the you that you really are
I didn’t hide from you…

You are gone
But, with every loss comes reinvention
A new evolving reflection, born
I am more than I am today
I am more than I will be tomorrow
With time, memories will sting less 
My heart will soften from hard lessons
Your name will be far from lips

This journey
It's nothing new to a woman like me
I lost myself in you
And, you lost something wonderful...


C/F