Under the Sake Tree…

Head on your shoulder
Exhaustion in my heart
Silence spilled from my lips
As I sat besides you under the sake tree

Just 18 years old
In a place I had never been
In a space that was unfamiliar
A broken heart on the mend
From the one who said he loved me, then sailed across the sea
And the one who kissed me on the golf course
Lifting me from loneliness
Then, drove away
Leaving me to face judgment, alone

Then there you were
Your eyes told me you cared deeply
Yet you never took anything from me
You built me up
From all the broken pieces
And, never crossed the line

Because of you
I learned I could be loved and not abandoned.
It was beautiful, and confusing, and exactly what I needed

And as you moved on
I told you “if you’re not married by 30, marry me”
It was my all of my heart
It was more than a simple “I love you too”

Always and forever
Under the sake tree

Crash Atterrando…

To miss you, Is confusing
Wanting your happiness, Knowing I am the cost
A madness, A strength
A sadness, A longing
To find you
I can only reach within me
Knowing not your hand
Knowing not your heart
But, in knowing mine


Un Giorno Con Te…

With each dawn I shall wake 
But, I will not let my mind wander to you 
Even as another Spring passes 
And the seasons tell a tale of how once upon a time you found me 

I will keep waking 
And, with each day 
My name will be more distant from your tongue 
So your temper may fade away 

Between sunrise and sunset 
I will reach for all the reasons why I travelled this far
To see I am in not in your thoughts
And, in the silence of each morning 
I will hear that my name is not a lyric in the song you sing...

Tutte Le Cose Svaniscono…

Confess to the wind
Let it carry your words far
Feel deserved peace
Allow air to fill your lungs with the love you have within
Let your burden fade away...


Give yourself grace and kindness.

Find joy in the place where the love in you lives, even when you know it alone.

Forgive the ones that failed you, because they lost more than just you.

And, never regret the reasons why your heart has a rhythm… dance all of your years to it.


Though your lips never caressed the nape of my neck...
          Your hands never touched the curve of my waist...
    Your arms never gave me warmth...
And, though your words were never spent on me...

It was your eyes that failed to see, everything you had in me


Banale, ma Vero…

Why do my eyes lie to me?
Why is hope the only thing I see? 
Do my eyes see things not there?
Images, moments we never shared

Why do I see something more in you?
Why isn’t there a clearer view?
Why do I see something more than you can see?
Is that the reason you find fault in me?

Maybe my eyes didn’t lie
Perhaps the reason why my heart still cries?
Nevertheless, I know your eyes have failed to see
Everything that you had in me


Living in silence
I can hear the deafening truth
I genuinely lost my way
Looking to find something in your eyes
My heart animated unreality
My desire…
Nothing but greed
Always answering your call…
My fidelity to you
Leaving you in the past
It’s so very hard
Believing I love you…
Is even harder
Convincing myself it was wrong
Is a bridge too far
The truth flows through my veins
And, the truth is all I have


Non sono Piccola…

I will never be sorry
For the love in my heart
For saying what I need to throw into the universe
For doing what I must do
For living what I feel
And, though you look at me with disdain
With the same eyes that once swallowed me whole
No, I will never be sorry

Only think of me
And say…
“She was not small”


I will walk this road
I will run this road
I will fall and get up
Again and again
I will walk this road
To where the light is bright
I will walk the road I was born to
With my simple heart


Ho Deciso…

I decided
Long ago
To stop asking
Do I deserve you in my life?

I decided
Long ago
To stop asking
Out loud in the night
Will you ever hold my hand?

I decided
Long ago
I’m just going to love you
Because… I simply love who I love

Now I ask the night
To hold you safe
To bring you joy
And, that you sometimes remember I smiled for you

I ask the heavens
To leave love in my heart
Instead of begging
To take it all away

I ask that love never leaves me
So, my heart keeps on beating
When I miss something I never had
Or when I remember, how easily I was erased

I decided
Long ago
That this is how I will love you



Moving past 
Stepping forward
Sto andando oltre
Until I can't remember the color blue
Until I can close my eyes, and not see you


Da me a voi…

Nei tuoi occhi azzurri
Ho trovato tutto quello che avevo perso in me
Mi sveglierò con te, ogni giorno della mia vita


I want to be all of me with you
Not less
I want to be seen
Through your eyes
To see you
As you
Bathe in the truth of you
Stand with you
Hold you
Drown in the smell of you
Lose myself in your neck
In your arms
Because you… are you

I want to build boundaries
Know I never have to let you go
Fucking really believe
That I will exist in you
The way you exist in me

You are not mine
Yet… You are
I will love you
For all my life